I've been stable for 75 days. Hard work and taking care of my needs has made that happen. Until a few days ago, I have been enjoying the peacefulness, enjoying the calm, enjoying feeling like a normal person. Instead of trying to survive day to day and dealing with my Bipolar, I finally have time… Continue reading 75 Days
When you ask most women if they want to have kids, without skipping a beat, they say yes. What a beautiful feeling it must be to be so sure of such a big decision. That is a hard place for me to get to. It's a big decision and children are not easy. Do the… Continue reading To Baby or Not To Baby – Part 2
As one of my favorite customers likes to say "If I was doing any better, I couldn't handle it." I feel that today. Went for my first outside run of the year and it was fantastic. Blows the treadmill out of the water! The sun shining, my favorite tunes playing and fresh air!!!!! God it… Continue reading Ruuun Forest Ruuuun
How can I forgive After doing what you didI couldn't imagine doing that to my daughter That is not the role of a fatherHands in dirt to hands in my shirtInnocence lost, just like my mindTrying to cover up my skinWhile my mind uncovered demonsThat was the start of the aftermathDrinking and drugsBecause who gave… Continue reading Freedom
February has been shit to say the least. I find January and February to be the most trying months when it comes to my moods. I think next year I might be proactive and up my meds before winter lol. January wasn't as bad, but this month... fuck, so shitty moodwise. You would think it… Continue reading Regrets? I have a few.